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Monday, July 31, 2006 `

sian.... so many many work to do... really really feel like breaking down

POSTED AT 11:53 PM

Sunday, July 30, 2006 `

another sunday liao

one and a half years today... wad a coincidence... u noe wad? we actually bought a bag for each other!... thats a funny thing... another thing... we actually bought the same brand... lol! so excited! yay i got new bag... yay... my grey converse bag has been with me since sec3... so long of using that bag... finally theres a change le... so happy...

anyway today we went to pasir ris park for cycling... we gotten a double bike... den we pedal pedal pedal... lol so fun... being at the beach is really peaceful... and all worries will naturally be gone...

hope she gets well soon..

anyway... recount back to friday... me is the secretary for the upcoming tkd training camp...
another stress added to all my assignments lor... haix... will die sia... summore i gotta design a camp t-shirt lor... super stress...

den gotta type application form for tat... and design certificates oso... wa... so many many things... argh!!!

and the deadline for all the tkd stuff is 8august!! and 8august is the day after i hand in all my major assignments and the start of studio project!! and i oni have 1 day to do everything!!!

aaaaaaargggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i too stress for this weekend... things din work out the way i wan them to be... i din succeed in many things i do... end up again... my timetable is a useless crap... i planned alot of stuff to do but i oni do one of them cos the rest really cannot make it...

i oni have like 5 days to chiong all 3 major assignments liao... friday... its coming... i'm gotta chiong...

chiong chiong chiong!!!

but now after a day of cycling, really dam tired liao... so i better sleep... anything tml den say... T_T

"it's better to get enough sleep and do constructive stuff the next day rather than forcing myself through the night doing ridiculous craps... and doing ridiculous craps again the next day..."

POSTED AT 10:31 PM

Sunday, July 23, 2006 `

sunday..

haix... my morning... was very terrible... haix... miserable

first time my heart ache that i have the feeling that i had heart problem... was really tensed... really miserable... tears n tears... thousands of words cant describe my feelings

afternoon... i went to meet my tkd people for bowling... but we met earlier for lunch... wasnt really in the mood to eat... so i couldnt finish my meal of duck rice...

den after that we went for bowling at dunno wad csc de club... at bukit batok, at first i couldn't get up the mood as well... but after that getting better n better... suddenly realised me and weiliang de standard is almost the same... all our scores are about average 100 de...

also realised how great my chief instructor sir peter was.. he was in school basketball team, and bowling team last time, and now he is tkd black belt 3rd dan.. and a national fighter... its like good in everything... den his family oso quite bonded... so envy... that's wad i call live life to the fullest..

after that... we went to eat at west mall, was toking about piano... cos medeline is teaching piano at the top floor of west mall... den i was telling her i wanted to learn piano since i m primary2... but my mum dun let... actually when i was young i quite enthu about stuff de... i wanted to learn tkd since i was primary6... and wanted to join band in secondary school... again my mum dun let... she always complain this ex that ex de...

i seen people whom their parents make them learn those stuff when they r young... but they complain y their parents force them to learn this learn that... actually i really envy wad their parents do for them...

anyway... because of me saying i m keen in learning piano... after dinner she immediately brought me to the music room at the top floor... den she taught me piano for like 1hour like tat... learning the basics... like reading the scores... and playing it... etcetc... she really good at playing... envy sia... practise abit... they think i picked up quite fast... but i jus impatient... i wanna learn alot alot at one go...

haix... i dying wan a piano lor... i dun care... my first few salaries when i really work professionally next time... i must must buy a piano... dun care... i wan learn...

POSTED AT 10:11 PM

HURT

crying is a remedy to worries that i always have...

POSTED AT 1:55 AM

Wednesday, July 19, 2006 `

3D Modelling

sian...

chiong ar chiong

3d Body at least must finish the body... muscles fingers later den say... still got motion graphics concept to show teacher tml... wa stress...

temptation to play cs... wa... grr... >.<

POSTED AT 11:15 PM

Tuesday, July 18, 2006 `

Skipped Tkd T_T

haix...
today actually me wanna go tkd... me feel like exercising n stuff... but hor... thursday need show in 3d de body with clothings liao... me until now haven start... was thinking whether i can finish or not... wrote how much time i need to do... i planned about 15hours... and if i go tkd tonight... den i wun be sleeping at all for wednesday...

still thinking.. i ask edmund and jay el n they say to be safe i better start tonight... cos really take quite alot of time to do it... oso to think how i done my head modelling assignment so last minute and how gone case it turned out... lol... so i made up my mind to not go le... *hope today's training no circuit sparring of some sort, if not i will regret my whole life for not going* (haha not so kua zhang)

yay! Lucify is into the Finals!! woohoo! so kewl...

yesterday played cs at home... so shuang... long time no play le... at first keep dieing... but after that got a little better... but not as good as last time...
*lesson learned: must KEEP PRACTISING to get good results* =P
(I am implying studies T_T)

woo... din do the personality test at min's blog yet... but her result sounds like me... hmm... creative and inspiring... quite true... she often gives me ideas for my assignments... mayb next time she can come my company pao kopi... lol... no la... mayb can be creative director.. and me... interactive art director!! motivation motivation...

haix... sian de night... long night to go... must chiong modelling!!

stop pen here (zai ci ting bi)
jX up (Jun Xiong shang)

=P

POSTED AT 7:59 PM

Monday, July 17, 2006 `

Crazy for Hair

i really dam sad... the hairdresser cut my hair until so short again... now mi really have phobia of cutting hair le...

today went to school... kena teased by my classmates... they all think very ugly... haix... i m like lost all my self-confidence le... today i m really very self-conscious about myself... but i saw many other friends in school... wa... make me so paiseh about it... in their mind they r all thinking how ugly my hair was...

really really afraid of cutting hair le... i regret times after times... everytime i went to cut hair... me already tell the person dun wan so short le... still ask her cut until eye level... but she go cut until like last time... no diff at all...

its not the hair short... is cos my hairstyle should be more suitable for not so short hair de... but the short hair makes it look so weird... n the way she cut... cut until the corners so short... look funny

now i will scared of going out even... cos people are looking at me...

POSTED AT 3:43 PM

Sunday, July 16, 2006 `

weekEnded

this weekend is jus like any other weekends... planned alot to do... but end up have not done anything... haix... sad mans...

yesterday, went to cut hair... again... the hairdresser cut my hair so short again... that's the problem... i get rather afraid of cutting hair... cos she always cut very short for me... now i look like nerd T_T

after cut hair... me go shop for alarm clock with my mum... cos i always oversleep for school... so we asked for the loudest.. those bell kind... not mechanical sound tat kind... den when test out the sound.. i still scare not loud enough.. but shld be can so i bought.. den this morning... i was sleeping... den suddenly the alarm sounded to wake mi up... i jumped up sia... shocked mi.. damn loud... but end up i off it n went back to sleep... not noticing i should be suppose to wake up le..

today went out with min, to NLB... actually wanted to do some work... brought my web design de art materials there... but... slacked whole day cos dun feel like doing anything...

somehow found out today that me and dear actually share same probs... and we were actually taking turns to be advisors and listeners... agreeing with her in her blog... i think its coincidental too... fate tells everything

suddenly now have a sudden eagerness to eat soursop ice..

thanks dear too~! ^_^

POSTED AT 10:53 PM

Saturday, July 15, 2006 `

Good or Bad

yesterday,
i lost my wallet... should be at the fast food centre... mac there.. haix... and mus be my small back pocket that make it drop out when i sit down or wad... haix... went to make police report yesterday...but the police say no need report... wth... no need report den ppl use my ic to do bad things how... ppl i noe who lost oso got make police report de...

anyway... today i went to school earlier to student affairs, hoping some good guy would return it back to me... but it wasnt there... haix... den make ezlink card oso so ma fan... but no ezlink card... transport here and there... waste so much innocent money...

after that i went to tkd... jogged around the campus and do staircase training until legs wobbly wobbly liao... den go back training ground still got power training... wa shiok... tats the sensation... den after that got sparring... i was arranged to spar with a white belt... hope i din injure him cos his last kick his instep landed on my knee... my knee abit pain... i suppose he is real pain... cos last time i kick ppl knee b4... oso very pain... den after training i keep sparring with ppl... there's this another white belt... find that he learn quite fast... he can apply wad he jus learn into sparring with me... oso through that sparring i found out that good techniques used many times will become a bad thing... as ppl will realise it and strategize to counter attack me...

losing my wallet caused me alot of problems... i m really stressed... along with all other stuffs... i m going crazy...

haix... happy about sparring... but... dunno y... when theres good things.. there is bad things accompanying along... lots of bad things happening to me... seem like everything around me is against my way... i m stress over wad i treasure most... i dunno wad happen... now the oni thing which is by me is my bolster... T_T

moodless to continue... i shall stop here...

POSTED AT 12:26 AM

Monday, July 10, 2006 `

for sat n sun + Grading + Go Out

Saturday,
actually i planned quite a load of work to do... but dunno y i just cant get the mood of doing... end up whole day i din do any work... cos i woke up in the afternoon... (dunno y... i wun have mood to do work if i wake up late in the day) in the afternoon... i watched "Over The Hedge" and "Xmen3" ... haha...

Overthehedge very funny show... the story was not bad... the animation is great too... i rate it 4stars! ... den Xmen3 oso very nice show... but hor... dunno y... more mature shows i always cannot understand the plot de... but overall is still nice la... i rate it 3.5stars!

den i watch finish den night liao... i eat dinner and watch tv... den i go play maple until i sleep... T_T still cannot get my maple lama staff after so long...

Sunday,
haas... my Taekwondo grading day, this time de grading.. i can say is consider my top form liao... although still will nervous... but compare to previous gradings i already quite satisfied... cos previous gradings will cos i too nervous den i din do well... but this time still not bad i think... aha... the pattern is the one i satisfied with... the basic kicking... the first back thrust i kick too hard i nearly fall... lol... heng i can balance... den the sparring... lol... spar like nv spar like tat... 30seconds nia... zzz... kick awhile nia den over liao... lol... think of during training de circuit sparring... we do those like 20times?... until numb liao... lol...

after that i went to meet my gf den go meet her friends debbie huiling and samantha... we went paradiz centre to play pool... i dunno wad happen to me... my white ball always went into the hole today... haix... until i wan peng liao... not go into hole means fly off the table... lol... the ball really light... i really nv use much force... mayb is cos 7ft table la... that stupid place dun have 8ft... den 9ft so ex... 9.90per hour... zzz...

den after that... we went to plaza sing to eat Swensens... haha... me ordered fish n chips... and we shared a giant earthquake... lol... poor me first time eat earthquake... all the flavours nice leh... except the green colour one... is something almond de... hehe... no offense...

den after that we go arcade lo... den play awhile den go home liao... i took 88 bus overshot again T_T ... why i always overshot bus stop de...

hehe... thats how i spend my weekend... later 45mins more... italy vs france! yay... -_- but sleepy liao... i more eager to see the world cup than the match... lol... gold gold big big... so nice~!
^_^

POSTED AT 12:22 AM

Saturday, July 08, 2006 `

hmm... slacking around the weekend

yesterday, friday... actually wanna do some work to make myself feel better... end up... cos i woke up late... and i have to leave house at 4.30pm for dinner + taekwondo... so i end up watching movie... 8below...

8below ar... not a bad show... quite touching in the end... lol... i was hoping the dogs could talk... lol... too cartoon liao... cannot... must be a serious show wor..

yesterday night de taekwondo, we started stretching, ultimate stretching... with a partner behind pushing your back... den i suddenly realised i can stretch until my forehead touch my knee without much pain... tat was scary... lol... hope next time i can be super flexible...

today... i woke up at 10am... watched some kiddy shows and eating brunch... lol... y m i watching those... funny leh... until now lo... 12noon le... lol...

still troubled about my drawing class... i really afraid i oversleep again... if i bon one more time den i kena debar liao... den have to retake module next year... i dun wan!! >.<

i hate drawing class so much i wanna faster clear it off from my life... lol... not so kua zhang... actually i enjoy drawing when i do 5 weeks of weekly sketches (5drawing/week X 5weeks = 25drawings) at one go... very shiok de... can feel the tension... but once u stop... tension's gone... den very difficult to start again... lol... chim huh...try it... it works for mee ^_^

POSTED AT 11:56 AM

Wednesday, July 05, 2006 `

WARNING LETTER !!

wa die liao... today i check school email... i kena warning letter... cos i bon drawing lesson twice liao... omg... panick panick...

it says one more time i bon i kena debar from drawing liao...

for webdesign i see my attendance list is absence twice oso... i m present actually... but i was late... so counted absent... wa... i think the warning letter for web design should be on the way liao...

y i so slack!! T_T

POSTED AT 9:06 PM

i've been tagged !

er..

i've been tagged! zz

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Current...

Mood: sleepy mood... after the long bus ride

Taste: plain water with a twist of H2O.. (actually is refilled water into the finished H2O bottle.. lol)

Clothes: Quiksilver shirt, Deyi p.e shorts lo...

Desktop: computer, jay figurine, tissue box, long ruler, umbrella, another computer, my cat on the window ledge ^_^

Time: 12.46pm

Surroundings:

left: the poor and dusty guitar i have not touched for a long time

right: fan, i cant live without it

Annoyance: hot day, at this kinda whether, i think at the forest behind will have trees burning again... really...

Thoughts: somebody has finished her exams ^_^

First...

Best Friend: erm... not sure

Crush: the blank papers from the geography exam in secondary school.. teacher ask us to crush them ^_^

Music: recorder

Last:

Crush: hmm... some really ridiculous drawings that really makes ppl vomit?

Cigarette: i hate smoking

Drink: do i have to say it again? see (taste)

Movie: silent hill T_T... y must u remind me..

Phone call: min

CD played: erm.. november's choppin ba (not now)

Song played: Chen Mo De Gao Yang - Zhao Chuan

Have you ever...

Dated one of your best friends: nope

Broken the law: yup... i suppose everyone does.. laws are meant to be broken

Been arrested: i took a Rest before... hehe

Been on TV: i shy.. lol

Kissed someone you dont know: no... i wun do tat too..

5 things you are wearing: ring, ring, ring, ring, ring.. i dun wear accesories.. -_-

4 things you did today: go school, eat, take bus, go find min

3 things you can hear right now: the fan, my father's loud tv in his room o.O , my cat's bell cos he's jumping around

1 thing you do when you are bored: sleep, i need lotsof slp... i dun wan white hair T_T

POSTED AT 12:39 PM

Monday, July 03, 2006 `

wOrld cUp sIanx

wa lao... brazil lost to france..
and enland lost to portugal..

argh... all the good teams all gone le... wads left are those not so good ones... brazil my fav team... lost to france in one free kick... wa liew... lucky sia... grr...

POSTED AT 10:14 AM

Saturday, July 01, 2006 `

~~~~ Silent Hill ~~~~

last night until today morning... i went to watch silent hill with my class... before that we went to stand there at cineleisure and watch soccer match.. *pathetic* the score was 1:1 Germany:Argentina... den germany won from the penalty kick... after the match i think argentina had a fight with the referee... lol... argentina actually is win de lor... is tat referee kayu... bias on germany de... den summore the argentina goalkeeper already injured and sub another goalkeeper in... tats y argentina lost the penalty kick T_T... i wan see argentina vs brazil in finals de lor... no chance le... mayb is brazil vs germany again... like 4 years ago..

den after that i watch silent hill... first few parts i din really watch alot at the climaxs... cos i quite scared... i always imagine the monsters to be really scary de... but after one part i see the monster i continue watching le... i nv see b4 horror film de monster so cute de... lol... is a huge big guy with a metal head... the whole head has a shape tat looks like long john's chocolate cream cake... but got alot of gore scenes sia... alot of blood everywhere... and burning... anyway the plot was quite confusing... we all dun get wad it means... it was an open ending... cos end up the devil went into the sharon's body i think...

POSTED AT 10:38 AM

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